Precious But Worthess
Assalamualikum, Salam Sayang.
Hope all in full of love and hapiness.
Well another page in my writting. What thing is precious but worthless?, well personally for me is " Effort ". This E things people will never appreciate when it exist, but will be remembered when it's gone. That is the truth of sad. I still don't get it, why its so hard people so hard to appreciate someone effort to them.
Oh, I know why, cause its a gift that cannot be seen by ordinary eyes or a physical gift. Please, please, please !!! I'm begging, even its not for me. Please appreciate the person who put much effort for you more then themself.
You ask for a pure heart, you ask for a truth to love you, you seek person to adore you. Trust me, a lot o people out there who suffer from this illness. Married couples, couple, family, friends and more. People would never appreciate this precious things when the " Straight Line " come.
Speaking of that line, last nigh, T.H came to me, starting from open up my eyes, till the most critical thing happend. But 1st, to M.D.A members this might bt T.W !!!. the after whole day fighting this T.H, Suddently, I just when to the place where i want to throw myself. But, suddently, I just realize a better place. Penang 2nd Bridge on what's on my mind. Then I made up my mind to execute it. During my way, my eyes never stop falling tears. When I reach at the place, My tears as heart as I can scream. But alhamdulillah, Allah loves me a lot. There's a wind suddently touch my cold body, Then things getting better, Yet I return home at almost 6.00 a.m ( Out Since 9.00 p.m ) .
Don't talk to me bout iman, cause all this things not related to iman. Instead, the people who talk without knowledge are the people who don't have iman. Why? cause the most we seek for help is Allah. Even I'm at the bridge, I still crying by Ptaying Allah to save me. Trust me, as I said, WE DONT'T WANT THIS !!!. But the things that lead me to still proced to drive to the bridge is " No one cares if I'm gone ".
Now, back to our topic. Please appreciate this " Effort " thing. You may not see it on your bare eyes, but you'll see with your heart. Just take a deep breath, take time to reflect. Ins'allah, you may realize it. Please, gift that person who put much effort towards you, just to see your smile and make them feel loved and something to fight for. Effort cannot be fake, cause it takes time yet it purely come from the heart. Dem my tears already fall. There's lot of things I really wanna write. But barely can't. My hands start shakin, my body start crumbling. I need to take break cause don't wanna to triggered unnessary cause. Last night wanna commit suicide, tonight do the writting.
Notice the people who make an effort to stay in your life. I'm just begging, Please appreciate person who put much effort in you. Cause...
Mental Illness is no joke, Hug me, I miss the old me. Don't leave me. Hold me.
I appreciate effort,
No matter how small,
Silly or irrelavant,
I appreciate effort.
Assalamualaikum, Salam Sayang.
Hope all in full of love and hapiness.
Well another page in my writting. What thing is precious but worthless?, well personally for me is " Effort ". This E things people will never appreciate when it exist, but will be remembered when it's gone. That is the truth of sad. I still don't get it, why its so hard people so hard to appreciate someone effort to them.
Oh, I know why, cause its a gift that cannot be seen by ordinary eyes or a physical gift. Please, please, please !!! I'm begging, even its not for me. Please appreciate the person who put much effort for you more then themself.
You ask for a pure heart, you ask for a truth to love you, you seek person to adore you. Trust me, a lot o people out there who suffer from this illness. Married couples, couple, family, friends and more. People would never appreciate this precious things when the " Straight Line " come.
Speaking of that line, last nigh, T.H came to me, starting from open up my eyes, till the most critical thing happend. But 1st, to M.D.A members this might bt T.W !!!. the after whole day fighting this T.H, Suddently, I just when to the place where i want to throw myself. But, suddently, I just realize a better place. Penang 2nd Bridge on what's on my mind. Then I made up my mind to execute it. During my way, my eyes never stop falling tears. When I reach at the place, My tears as heart as I can scream. But alhamdulillah, Allah loves me a lot. There's a wind suddently touch my cold body, Then things getting better, Yet I return home at almost 6.00 a.m ( Out Since 9.00 p.m ) .
Don't talk to me bout iman, cause all this things not related to iman. Instead, the people who talk without knowledge are the people who don't have iman. Why? cause the most we seek for help is Allah. Even I'm at the bridge, I still crying by Ptaying Allah to save me. Trust me, as I said, WE DONT'T WANT THIS !!!. But the things that lead me to still proced to drive to the bridge is " No one cares if I'm gone ".
Now, back to our topic. Please appreciate this " Effort " thing. You may not see it on your bare eyes, but you'll see with your heart. Just take a deep breath, take time to reflect. Ins'allah, you may realize it. Please, gift that person who put much effort towards you, just to see your smile and make them feel loved and something to fight for. Effort cannot be fake, cause it takes time yet it purely come from the heart. Dem my tears already fall. There's lot of things I really wanna write. But barely can't. My hands start shakin, my body start crumbling. I need to take break cause don't wanna to triggered unnessary cause. Last night wanna commit suicide, tonight do the writting.
Notice the people who make an effort to stay in your life. I'm just begging, Please appreciate person who put much effort in you. Cause...
Mental Illness is no joke, Hug me, I miss the old me. Don't leave me. Hold me.
I appreciate effort,
No matter how small,
Silly or irrelavant,
I appreciate effort.
Assalamualaikum, Salam Sayang.
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