I Just Don't Know
Assalamualaikum, Hi there.
As usual, M.D.A this is TW yea. Yet might be bit nasty this time. I'm so sorry. I just can't. I can't.
I'm so tired, deeply tired, so FCUKing tired!!! Really don't get it. What all the people need actually? Is there no more place to be nice? no more place to be loved? no more place to be full with peace?. Tell me!!! I need to know all this shit. Why I can't be nice to people? is it cause you need to put as much as gold you need so that people can really appreciate all the effort you put towards them?
Where's the pure heart?where's the truth?why can all you people be nice or at least appreciate effort or good things towards you guys? Come on, I put all of you instead of myself, yet this what you guys thank me? How bullshit am I, keep trying to do good things just to get some smile or happiness from others. End up in return with this fcuking things back at me.
Trust me, " People will never give a shit to you as how much you care bout them, in the end, it will Fcuk you up !!!". In the end, your just all alone. No one cares. NO ONE CARES!!!. When you're appreciate them, Some will give you as much reason they can just yet, will show their effort to you, .in other words, you know where you are inside their heart (not sure if they had a pure heart or not).
Maybe, they just don't give a FCUK how you treat them. The 1st person who pray behind you, effort of taking care of them, what you're facing just to make sure to see their smile and more. They just don't give a damn FCUK how every " little things " are means damn " PRECIOUS " to you. People will NEVER appreciate how much love you put towards them instead yourself. but then, they still DEMANDING a pure heart with the true love.
For those people that just "mask of heart" like you really wanna to be in every moment in life. Please, you'll failed cause in term of time. Cause effort is come from your pure heart. Yet, you'll never get tired doing the same things ( if ) you had to. Yet, it will make you feel more eager to do better then your last time.
For me, in the end. I'm all alone. Yea, I can put a smile, I can laugh, but in the end. There's no one wanna pull me from this sorrow or hug me and tell me thing I need to hear. Don't put any reason, ANY reason, ANY REASON that you don't have time to show your effort to someone you really care. Cause if that person means a lot to you, you will fine every FCUKING way of every GDODAMN second to show your effort to them.
Well, might be I'm the one who burden them just to show how much I care and adore to them. Yea, I'm just a burden to them. I'm just useless to live everyday. I don't know. I don't know. I'm tired. So much. I don't know how long I able to hold all of this things all by myself. Hope I can do my best. Maybe, I'm the one who cause them much trouble. Hoping that to get a smile in return. But all of this. It just a Bullshit.
In the end, I'm the one who drowning. Cause you don't need water to make you drowning right? This past few days, I'm actually having really aggressive migraine yet still put a smile to make everybody feels good. Starting to have sleep problem ( Just like my 1st year ). Yet, I'm having this kind of short term lost of mind. Some shit with mumbling words that came out from me. I don't know, maybe this is a sign for me. A sign that I'm losing my grip on holding not to fall apart in the darkness of sorrow and emptiness.
I just hope that I able to hold on as much long as I can. Even I'm losing my grip day by day, I'm still hoping there is someone who really wanna to grab me and hug me as deeply can, and tell me that I'm gonna be fine just like the old time again.
Assalamualaikum, Till we meet again.
As usual, M.D.A this is TW yea. Yet might be bit nasty this time. I'm so sorry. I just can't. I can't.
I'm so tired, deeply tired, so FCUKing tired!!! Really don't get it. What all the people need actually? Is there no more place to be nice? no more place to be loved? no more place to be full with peace?. Tell me!!! I need to know all this shit. Why I can't be nice to people? is it cause you need to put as much as gold you need so that people can really appreciate all the effort you put towards them?
Where's the pure heart?where's the truth?why can all you people be nice or at least appreciate effort or good things towards you guys? Come on, I put all of you instead of myself, yet this what you guys thank me? How bullshit am I, keep trying to do good things just to get some smile or happiness from others. End up in return with this fcuking things back at me.
Trust me, " People will never give a shit to you as how much you care bout them, in the end, it will Fcuk you up !!!". In the end, your just all alone. No one cares. NO ONE CARES!!!. When you're appreciate them, Some will give you as much reason they can just yet, will show their effort to you, .in other words, you know where you are inside their heart (not sure if they had a pure heart or not).
Maybe, they just don't give a FCUK how you treat them. The 1st person who pray behind you, effort of taking care of them, what you're facing just to make sure to see their smile and more. They just don't give a damn FCUK how every " little things " are means damn " PRECIOUS " to you. People will NEVER appreciate how much love you put towards them instead yourself. but then, they still DEMANDING a pure heart with the true love.
For those people that just "mask of heart" like you really wanna to be in every moment in life. Please, you'll failed cause in term of time. Cause effort is come from your pure heart. Yet, you'll never get tired doing the same things ( if ) you had to. Yet, it will make you feel more eager to do better then your last time.
For me, in the end. I'm all alone. Yea, I can put a smile, I can laugh, but in the end. There's no one wanna pull me from this sorrow or hug me and tell me thing I need to hear. Don't put any reason, ANY reason, ANY REASON that you don't have time to show your effort to someone you really care. Cause if that person means a lot to you, you will fine every FCUKING way of every GDODAMN second to show your effort to them.
Well, might be I'm the one who burden them just to show how much I care and adore to them. Yea, I'm just a burden to them. I'm just useless to live everyday. I don't know. I don't know. I'm tired. So much. I don't know how long I able to hold all of this things all by myself. Hope I can do my best. Maybe, I'm the one who cause them much trouble. Hoping that to get a smile in return. But all of this. It just a Bullshit.
In the end, I'm the one who drowning. Cause you don't need water to make you drowning right? This past few days, I'm actually having really aggressive migraine yet still put a smile to make everybody feels good. Starting to have sleep problem ( Just like my 1st year ). Yet, I'm having this kind of short term lost of mind. Some shit with mumbling words that came out from me. I don't know, maybe this is a sign for me. A sign that I'm losing my grip on holding not to fall apart in the darkness of sorrow and emptiness.
I just hope that I able to hold on as much long as I can. Even I'm losing my grip day by day, I'm still hoping there is someone who really wanna to grab me and hug me as deeply can, and tell me that I'm gonna be fine just like the old time again.
Assalamualaikum, Till we meet again.
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Aku tk kuat.
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